You know, I think even before I met you I was already some kid too emotionally attached to others. No... I know I was. If you could travel back in time, you would see that.
There have been some thoughts, as usual. I think now I should look for some kind of change, rediscover myself and who I am. Because, I mean, I've been wearing these rose-colored glasses for a long time, and I've idealized you enough to the point where (even the thought of) being without you is putting a lot of stress on myself; and I do apologize. I don't know if something like this would even make you budge or care, but to say that you're the root of my anxiety sounds pretty bad to me...
. . .
I don't want that. So I’m going to find myself.
No, not find myself. Create myself.
You'll like me a lot more, and I'll enjoy who I am without thinking it's because of you. But I do enjoy you, believe that I do. You're a ray of sunshine in my world.~
I just need to find all the others, too. I trust that you'll be there for me, right?
If so, I'm set. Knowing that gives me peace of/at mind.
I'm also here if you ever need me. :]
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It's a messy declaration.
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